സെൻറ് ജോൺസ് മോഡൽ എച്ച്.എസ്.എസ്. നാലാഞ്ചിറ/അക്ഷരവൃക്ഷം/MY FIRST PROPOSAL

MY FIRST PROPOSAL What's true love? May be one of the most asked question and yet the pursuit to find its meaning is equally important as the rational enquiry to find the purpose of life. The old one reading this may try to define true love as the love which the mother have towards her kids. The young one may try to define it as romantic affair between a girl and a boy. In the Upanishads,the philosophical text of India, we finds a highly philosophical conversation. The story is like this:- In India the educational system was known as "Gurukula sampradaya" in which the student has to leave everything behind and spends 14 years as a "BHRAMACHARI" in the forest hermitage with guru to study. So once a king had sent his son for studying and when he returned his father asked: Oh! Dear son what do You know? The son replied I know this that etc……….etc…… The king's face turned gloomy and asked his son: Don't you know everything after all this 14 years of contemplation? This son was a very logical lad. He replied: OH! Father we are limited beings. How we can know the whole of this unimaginably vast oceatic Cosmos? The king smiled and replied: OH! Son you are right there.The Finite cannot express Infinite/Absolute. It's a useless pursuit to study the whole universe with the intention to know the Absolute. But you can know the whole by knowing the one, the Absolute, which is the self itself and that's you. Similarly, My pursuit was to find true love which is ever existing,Infinte, Transcendental and that which make me love from the smallest atom to the highest manifestation of existence,to transcend love within me beyond this flesh and mind. I think it's was a lunch time of the day just before February 14-The Valentine's Day. The girl who sat next to me asked : Aren't you gonna propose her tomorrow what will you give her ? I felt insulted and my mental strenghth vanished spotlessly which made me spit her with utmost harsh words which made her cry the whole day. But my mind was a huge failure when it comes to keep hatred towards other beings. So I apologized her like a brother to his sister after a fight or altercation. Off course! I didn't went to school the next day. Because nobody ever expected from me this. After three years of aquintance they are seeing for the first time my face with such demonic angriness. I thought to myself: How can I be such harsh and rude being. Don't ever repeat this! But one thing still I never understood that's true love itself.If it's just an affair between a boy and a girl, I will never love anyone truely and it's for sure. Because once I remember the words said to my mother when children's of my age hardly could read even a novel: Dear mother,the pleasures of flesh and earth are not for me, who seeks wisdom. But I was absolutely sure that It's not just an affair ,Maybe it's a form of love, But not true. Because anything exists truely means it is Infinte , absolute and unchanging. But the matter is subjected to change. So the love of flesh and mind is not absolutely true,but in some cases it's true relatively but not absolutely. A love of mother towards her children is also limited But it's more sophisticated and the highest manifestation of selfless love on earth. But still it doesn't make one love everything in this Cosmos,because it has limitations and it's not much capable of Transcending those limitations. And what is this true love which is limitless, Transcendental and that which makes one love everything. And that I found the supreme love towards god expecting nothing in return even Heavens. So why its said the supreme love towards God makes one love everything? Once a Sufi saint named Rumi said:- When I search for Allah! I found my "Self". When I search for my " Self" I found Allah! It's clear that the self that is we is god. When One renounces his/her's identification with the body and mind and goes more and more subtle inwards one will surely comes to this conclusion. When one realises that which is "I" is god itself, starts loving the whole world because his/her perception has become more fine and pure. Because the"I" that is self is god, It means that you are also god you are also the same self but seems to be conditioned by Space,Time and Matter due to ignorance. Once Swami Vivekananda said: "We are potentially divine the goal is to manifest it". I was totally amazed at my thoughts and I jumped suddenly from my bed and ran into the meditation room and praid to god: OH! God If I seeks thou for selfish motives,burn me with painful fire of misery . OH! God If I seeks Thou with selfless motives please grant me devotion to thou. I Love thou alone!! The next day(feb15) I went to school with a cheerful and blissful spirit. Amazed at my happiness the same girl who had cried because of me asked: What happened, Yesterday. You were both not present and today you both are present and you are filled with happiness and bliss I ever have seen on your face.So tell me truth, do you proposed her? Then this time with calmness I said: Yes , but not her. Then she asked with utmost curiosity: Then who is it tell me? I replied her with happiness: Oh! dear sister I had proposed that one which is Absolute, the Infinte, blissful and that one which makes me love everything,from the atom to the highest manifestation of existence,and that is god itself. "MEMOIR WITH DECORATION" ലക്ഷ്മി പതി ബാലാജി 11 H സെൻറ് ജോൺസ് മോഡൽ എച്ച്.എസ്.എസ്. നാലാഞ്ചിറ തിരുവനന്തപുരം നോർത്ത് ഉപജില്ല തിരുവനന്തപുരം അക്ഷരവൃക്ഷം പദ്ധതി, 2020 ലേഖനം  സാങ്കേതിക പരിശോധന - sheelukumards തീയ്യതി: 30/ 04/ 2020 >> രചനാവിഭാഗം - ലേഖനം