Once I practiced
Emotional distancing
While I am embracing
My friend
I hated when I smiled
I shook hands
When I was filled with scorn
My smiles were lined with derision
Now , while being shut up in a cage alone
I realize the value of love
I realize why the caged bird
never sings
I realize
No one is needed to lament over my demise
I realize my birthday parties
Needed myself alone